In the End

Have you ever asked yourself a question, Why me? Its quite natural to someone who is under tremendous pressure. There is nothing you can do about it, but take it as it comes. I really feel now that I shouldn have taken her to lunch today, if I wouldn have, I could have avoided such a predicament. But well whats the point in crying over spilt milk when its all over. I know i cant reverse things the way they stand now, If at all i could go back in time and cancel my luncheon appointment with her. But let me come back to reality, fine irreparable damage has been done but its time to move on, there is so much more to life, am hardly 23 years old. Self encouragement always helps in such situations, things like "Don worry dude, you are not the only one who goes through such phases, majority goes through it and there is absolutely no fault of yours in what happened", can help lifting the spirits. My conscience is constantly torturing , saying you could have avoided this mishap if you wouldn have taken her to lunch in first place but i retort back saying i did what i had to do what i wanted to do and now i don regret doing it. Amidst all the trouble cant help myself singing

I had to fart to lose it all
In the end it doesnt even matter....

Where do I belong?

Caught between tears and joy
Caught between care and indifference
Caught between sleep and dreams
Caught between smiles and sighs
Caught between wants and needs
Caught between courage and fear
Caught between success and failure
Caught between body and soul
Caught between day and night
Caught between mortal and eternal
Caught between me and what you want me to be
Caught between love and hatred
Caught between life and death

When you have no solid ground to step on, when you have no side you can take or nobody who can take your side, when you have no emotion you can feel, when you can neither live nor die, you are nothing but CAUGHT.